Sleep Deprived

I don't know what is going on with me, but I am feeling totally sleep deprived. I typically am in bed by 9 at the latest, but I usually can't fall asleep for quite a while. When I do get to sleep, I don't seem to sleep well. Either I wake up a lot or I have crazy, and sometimes disturbing dreams and wake up feeling like I never went to bed. I hope this ends soon.

Blech

As I've said, this blog is for my random thoughts. This post wil be one of those times when I just want to write out my thoughts. It is not intended to be taken completely seriously. It is not a request for some serious advice or anything. I just need to get out of my own head a little and writing is my way of doing that. Of course, if you have some advice that you believe would be helpful, I am always happy to hear it. Ok, here I go...

Have you ever wanted to kill your spouse, but you have no idea exactly why you want that? I have. This past week has been really hard on me and, other than the obvious reason, I have no idea why.

My asthma has been awful this week, especially Monday night through Wednesday, but it still isn't where I would like it to be. I had a blessing on Monday and went to the doctor on Tuesday. My doctor gave me a ton more medicine and strict instructions on how much to take of what and when. It was insane.

So, lately, anytime Wil reminds me to take my medicine or asks me if I've done it (which he only does because he's concerned about my health..I know...), I end up getting really snippity and think of a ton of ways to use my medicine to make him uncomfortable. I know that doesn't really fit with the whole "newlywed" thing usually, but I've never claimed to be normal.

Anyway, I've come up with and, thankfully avoided doing, many horrific things that I could do to my husband, or the next person who happens to look at me. Even when Wil has done nothing annoying and hasn't said anything remotely obnoxious, I sometimes still want to destroy him. So my question is why. I don't think I could ever actually figure that out.

Last night, while I was getting ready for bed, I had one of those unexplainable moments. I was just listening to my iPod as I got ready for bed and layed down to go to sleep. Wil wasn't even in the room. When he came in to talk to me for a few seconds, I was annoyed that he didn't realize I was in a bad mood and that he didn't try to cheer me up, and at the same time, I was thankful that he stayed away.

I don't think I'll ever really understand what has been going on with me this week. In the end though, I've decided that no matter how much I might feel the urge to kill my husband, if in the end, I realize that I love him far more than I am annoyed by him, than that is what matters. Since I love him more than anything else in my life, besides my faith, I don't think I could ever actually bring myself to do anything to hurt him.

Thus ends my rambling thoughts.

Blog for me and Wil

I decided that since this blog is for my random thoughts, I'd create a blog for me and Wil to share. Here's our new blog address: http://wil-jess.blogspot.com/ Feel free to take a look. Wil probably won't be writing much on it, but I'll make sure everyone knows what's going on with him anyway.

Final Countdown

The wedding is less than a week away! I can't believe it. The past three weeks have gone so fast (except for the hours when I was working of course). I am so excited to marry Wil. He's my best friend, my everything. He means more to me than I could begin to express. I'm so glad that he fits in so well with my family and that I fit in with his. This past year has been full of ups and downs, but I'm so happy to be finishing the year married to the man I love. It's been an amazing ride, and I can't wait to start on our next great adventure, together.

Me & Wil

So, I am in a really weird mood and I'm super hyper, so I actually put make up on today. So, not only is my hair super cute from last night, my face also looks good. I made Wil put up with my silliness and got some pictures of both of us. Considering I was taking most of them without a tripod or anything, they turned out really cute.

New Hair

My mom and I went to get our hair cut (well, get my trimmed and hers cut) last night. It was a lot of fun. Mom came with me to where I get my hair done, Lunatic Fringe. Her stylist was Sarah. I was with my usual stylist, McKenzie, who I think is amazing. McKenzie was very careful not to change my length too much, since she knew I was getting married in a month, and did a really cute blow dry to make my hair have soft curls. Sarah gave mom a new look. First she did it curly (which I only kind of saw through the mirror when McKenzie wasn't in the way (mom was directly behind me). Once I was finished, I got to see Sarah straightening mom's hair. I've never seen it straightened and it looked SO good. I made Wil take pictures of our cuteness.
Mom's new hair

The back
We're so cute
Yes, I am a dork..

The Kenner's

Last night, Wil and I went out to get sushi with our good friends, Chris & Brittany Kenner. It was a blast. The sushi was great, the people we were with are awesome, we laughed a lot, and we got some crazy pictures, and even a few cute ones. The place is called Tokai Sushi 4U and has some of the best sushi I've had. After we were all stuffed, we went back to Wil's. We played Little Big Planet, which is crazy, but seriously fun with four people, and then watched Iron Man. Wil just recently hooked up the surround sound so he was excited to show it off. It was awesome. I fell asleep long before the movie ended. Anyway, I've got the pictures from last night below.